After the hard work the feeling of injustice

Br. MichaelDavide Semeraro

I am going through moments of despair, anger and desolation as I feel like a victim of God. In my life I have always listened to the voice of my heart and helped others. I took care of my parents sacrificing everything for eight years, And after all that I lost my good health. Even now if someone needs to be listened to or comforted I am ready to help. But beside all this I somehow feel “persecuted” by little accidents and illnesses which have brought me down. I live alone and for me my health is fundamental; I do not suffer from loneliness and I have a lot of different interests but I cannot cultivate them any more due to my bad health... I do not think that all this is right and I am rebelling against this situation. But I still have a little dose of self criticism and I ask myself: was I wrong?

C.V.

I do not think that you were wrong and that you are wrong now. I understand your anger, your suffering due to your frustration. I would like to remind you of a sentence written by Saint Bernard de Clairvaux: “Love is enough in itself and it is the reward to itself” it means that there is no link between the love we give to others and a kind of compensation that should protect us from illnesses and accidents. After having said this I would like to give you a little advice: look at the Crucifix and ask yourself if Jesus deserved such suffering. Then look at yourself and ask yourself if the pains of your life are a punishment or somehow a sign of ingratitude from God. Then look again at the Crucifix and ask him to give you the strength to love until the end and to rejoice in the little joys of life every day. I wish you, from the deep of my heart, a little bit of happiness.